Goals for 2010!

Goals for 2010:

Find myself again. In this jumbled up world that we live our lives in I have some how lost MYSELF! Oh My! How did that happen you wonder, well I dont know but I did! lol While I LOVE my job as mommy and a wife and wouldn't change that for anything, everything else as been lost. I need to make me time and take time daily to focus on me ( even if its 5 mins or at 3 am! ), to meditate and center myself.

Reconcile with lost friends that whether those reasons we're mine, there's or just life getting to us.

Find out who my true friends are. Yes even as an adult I still struggle with that!

Cut ties with ALL negative people and influences in my life. Again whether I am causing that negativity or they are I dont need that in my life. I need to focus on keeping my mind free and clear and at peace!

Learn to take challenges and surpass them; not let them bring me down.

Dont dwell on money issues. Money while it is needed to feed, clothe and keep a roof over our heads, is just that and only that. It is not a necessity to be rich or have all that is nice. I need to learn that those week by weeks and month by month times when we dont have enough we will make it some how. We ALWAYS do!

STOP LETTING PRIDE GET TO ME! Pride is a dangerous thing. I need to take help when its offered and ask when I need it.

Gain my faith and trust in God again.

Find a church home that I feel 100% comfortable in. One that is non judgmental ( ok I know everyone judges but its always bad when you walk into a church and feel those judging eyes everytime!). That is not up tight! That I dont have to wear a dress if I dont want to! That lives what it teaches but also knows that people make mistakes and are not 100% perfect. That dosnt make me want to fall asleep but also has a great message! That have "normal" people not bible thumping people that throw it down your throat. Im sure there is ALOT more on this one and Im sure you can tell I dont have luck with churches but I want to find a church family for my kids to grow up in and us to go as a family and become a family to that church.

That is all for now. Im sure I will add more as the year goes on, its pretty sad it took me half the year to realize all of this but I did it and will stick to it.